Home?Lasting Impression...
It is my hope to one day make an impression on the world that makes THE difference, that never expires, never dies. I do not want my person to be wasted, thrown away on a whim. I don't want the agony of dying with the sense that humanity is hopeless. That the race of which I am a part is futile, barren... Nothing more than an advanced ant-colony trying to ensure it's own survival on this planet.
If this is all we are then we are worthless. I refuse ,to the last breath in my body, to accept that I could be worthless, but the truth is uncompromising and has no consideration for my personal ego, It will without any sense of guilt or mercy, bulldozer me in to the ground if I stand in its way. I may take refuge in illusions and fantasies but until I accept the fact that I really do not matter all that much (not unlike an ant) I will never get any closer to the truth of things but instead go around and around in circles. I think that I like most people really can't handle the thought of not being the biggest thing in the universe. Since I've been the only thing in my universe for so long (in my case since I was born) I have a very hard time trying to imagine life, as I know it, without myself at the center of it. Now if I couldn't understand such a basic concept as that and realize that my ego would be wounded by it how can I ever learn anything about anything that has even the slightest connection to my own person, since everything I see, hear or do is colored and filtered through my own situation i.e. my own sense of self! ego!
-perhaps it is this that supposedly sets us apart from animals? -sets us apart? rather brings us closer together I would say!
but then again that is just me, and I don't really matter anyway. Until I accept that my ego is a big part of myself, I can't start healing it or try to understand it. I doubt that I'll be a complete person until I have done so, how can anyone be complete without some sense of self? We often say that part of what makes us "human" is an ability... or a capacity for emotions that animals lack, I beg to differ! Since an emotion is nothing more than a combination of chemicals released on the brain based on the associations that our brain makes when it encounters a pattern of data input that is familiar and that might have significance to our survival, Is there really then any reason to believe that an animal couldn't have the exact set of chemicals in their brains that are also released in the same way? Love might just be a brain-function telling us that this particular person will generate good offspring and cater to whatever other practical needs we might have. A parents love for their children is even easier to explain. So if human beings can love their offspring why shouldn't animals love their children? I think that we are constantly fooling ourselves with the idea that every human being harbors a supernatural power that is hidden deep within us, that differentiates us from other creatures and seduces our ego's to think that we are special, perhaps the notion of the human "soul" is no more than that? There is nothing in any of the things that humans do that suggests that we have a supernatural soul that separates us from animals.
As to the concept of art it could be argued that art is just another way of binding a complicated society together. Since art is culture and culture is the glue that binds us together. Art contributes to making a society relate to it self and ensures that the group stays together to form a society that is necessary for our survival. Art bridges gaps between people that might otherwise drive then further and further apart. The same could be said about football, music and literature. Even this text...
What's the point in making a lasting impression on an ant-colony? This is way I want to believe, this is why there is religion on this planet, this is why we have human rights What's the point in making a lasting impression on an ant-colony? There is nothing in any of the things that humans do to suggest that we have a supernatural soul that separates us from animals Perhaps through our imagination we have the ability to in some situations go outside of ourselves an look at life from the perspective of a deity. And in doing so se glimpses of what an ever more advanced creature would see if they looked at us.